BadGrl | Model Collection
I felt so proud and “fulfilled” after reading this… Sometimes as a nude photographer you get a lot of flack, obscene comments and remarks… But this blog just hit me back as the real reason why I do what I do! – Hope you enjoy reading it too?
Recently my day job has become pretty soul destroying. I work in a company heavily involved in the automotive industry and as that is pretty much dying on its arse at the moment business is not good and the companies future looks bleak. I work in marketing there, our budget has become non-existent and my work is slowly being squeezed down so I feel that the end maybe nigh, at least for my position if not the company as a whole.
I did my worrying but came to the conclusion that the world will keep turning what ever happens, there will be nothing I can do about it, so I decided to try and find some more positive ‘extra curricular’ activities to keep me positive. As I was thinking of things to do to keep myself entertained I remembered a girl that works in my local tattoo studio commenting that I should try my hand at alt modeling last time I was in getting inked. I didn’t really think anything of it at the time but the more I remembered what she’d said the more the wheels started to turn in my head.
She is an experienced alt model (XcherryX – mark)so I got in touch and asked if she could tell me a bit more. She recommended a couple of photographers so I found their details and rattled off an email to one I liked the look of (professional, good rep and I liked the style of his shots). I just blathered on (much as I am here) about myself, my tattoos and piercings and how I thought dipping my toes in to the world of alt modeling could be the fun distraction I was looking for.
I was very surprised to get a response back almost straight away and he seemed very positive about what I had written. We conversed back and forth via email for a bit then out of the blue he said he could spare some time to do a test shoot with me on Sunday (another model had just canceled – mark) . I must admit I went in to shock a bit and my knee jerk reaction was to say I couldn’t make it at such short notice. But after some encouragement and ‘opportunities like this don’t happen very often’ comments from my boyfriend I decided to take the plunge!
And I’m so glad I did! The photographer was amazing; ( :blush: – mark )we did the shoot at his house but this didn’t stop the end results looking absolutely fantastic…especially considering they were taken in his kitchen! ( I did warn her! – mark )He was professional to a tee but made me feel totally relaxed and comfortable with everything we did. He specializes in erotic/nude photography, although had mentioned I would be under no pressure to do anything I wasn’t comfortable with. Having never done anything like this before in my life I wondered how I’d feel and was naturally a little apprehensive.
As the shoot progressed I found myself looking at the pictures and suggesting that some of the poses would look better if I was topless. To my surprise I felt totally at ease stripping off and was surprised by the images we put together…I started to love the feel of my body and the voyeuristic nature of what I was doing and what people would think when they looked at the photos. I was really starting to think of each curve and angle of my body in a different way. Saying that I found the whole experience profoundly unsexual…even when I was totally starkers and being tied up in ropes! It made me feel very much in touch with myself, my body, my sexuality and the power that comes with that. It was nice to feel completely at home with my tattoos and piercings and see them as an enhancement and not something to hide (not that I do usually but to actually be able to use them to make a shot even more visually stunning was nice!)
By the time we finished I felt totally liberated and found myself suggesting ideas for future shoots and set ups for some specific projects the photographer is working on.
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